may 13, 2010. surreal. a very sad and surreal day.
it’s been a little over 2 weeks since we found out my mom has cancer. we’re trying to run more tests and cope with it as best as possible…but i can’t believe it. i still can’t fathom over the fact that my GOD! my mom has friggin’ cancer!! why must God be so cruel to my parents? they’ve gone through so much instability with their health in the past years…i can’t stand it. i’m scared. i need my parents.
walking along the beach with my parents yesterday felt nice. while everyone’s out enjoying memorial day, i just enjoyed the small moments i had with my parents. when life is put into perspective, the little moments become more defined.
jesus, i need you. i really do. help control my tears so that i may be strong and think in a lucid state of mind.
